As I wander down this new path of Christianity a lot has been brought to my knowledge, and sometimes it feels like more than you an handle but it never is. I have always always loved the verse "Ask and ye shall receive, knock and it shall be opened", but here is the thing about that. God has a sense of humor and when you ask for things, not only does he give it to you, he gives in quantities that sometimes melts, crushes, heals, and makes your heart soar all at once.
I have been kind of stagnate lately, I haven't been feeling the love or veil of excitement that I had when I first started immersing myself in church. I needed to feel that love and peace of the Spirit. So as I was at youth tonight, we were praying and I just prayed asking the Lord to open my heart and letting all my walls come tumbling down so that I could feel His present and love. And by golly, that did it. I don't want to go into too much detail of those moments, but it was something I will never forget. When you give it to the Lord and tell him basically "Okay, I'm here. I am yours, do with me and you see fit and let it be your will. Let's do it." some really amazing things happen. You experience some really outrageously amazing things.
I will go into detail of one great thing that happened, only because it has flipped my whole life upside down. Mormonism. Yep, good 'ol Mormonism. Now I am not here to tell anyone that what they do with their life is wrong, or what they believe is wrong. I also cannot tell you how to feel or what you should think or do. I am strictly speaking from my personal experiences and the things that have come upon me and my soul.
I was raised Mormon. I was taught all of the Mormon principals. One of which was that the fall of Adam and Eve was the "upright falling of humanity". That this sin needed to happen in order to fulfill the other commandment. THIS IS WRONG. This is news to me, I learned this last night. But this belief is wrong. Completely untrue. Yeah talk about a whirlwind for me. But not only was that something that rocked my world, listen to this. I was watching this guy talk about witnessing to a Mormon and how to phrase things and such. He goes on to say that Mormons will probably share their testimony and it will probably go something like this "I know this church is true. I know that Joseph Smith was a true and living prophet. I know that Jesus is my savior. and I know this church is true." As this guy was telling everyone about a Mormon's testimony, I went to a place and time way back when. I was 10 standing at the pulpit, after my dad had pushed me up there, reciting THESE EXACT WORDS. Word for word I said that at 10 years old because that is what you did. You were baptized, you gave your testimony, and you said these words. That was it, you didn't ask or question it. You just did it. Now, I don't know about anyone else, but that is kind of brainwashing a little bit. Okay, maybe more than a little bit. But definitely something that made me take a step back. My whole belief system, my whole life is wrong. This is the most exciting thing ever. I get to witness, and be washed new by this amazing God who loves me. I get to experience everything like a kid, and I get to learn new things and experience the amazing power of God.
I could say that my life was rough. And shitty, and not fair. But it is what it is, and I am beyond blessed. I have been saved. I have seen the truth, the light and the way and Jesus is so good. God is good. I just pray that if there is anyone who is questioning the Mormon religion, that they just pray. Seriously just pray to God. Don't recite what you were talk as a child, talk to God like you talk to your mom or your best friend. Ask Him to show you the truth, and He will. I pray everyday that my family can experience the truth and come to know God as the loving father that He is. And I pray for Mormons who are stuck, and don't know what to do but know that there is something better. You are loved, and you are being prayed for. Trust in the Lord, and all will be well.
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